confession of a broken heart

i'm trying to fix everything...

2011-03-12T22:31:00.004+08:00

aku sedar lately aku selalu post pasal cinta. korang mesti bosan bace kan? tapi aku tak kisah. ni blog aku, bukan blog korang.. hehe.. makin banyak problem yang timbul antara aku dan si dia. semuanya berpunca since new year aritu. dengan kemunculan seorang gadis yang bernama SAARA, semuanya jadi berubah.. aku angin satu badan bile dengar name tu. perempuan tu memang bikin panas je. ade ke patut die suruh aku break dengan azrun?? omg omg! kau sape nak suruh aku break semua?? aku ade kacau hidup kau ke?? yang aku lagi panas bile die cakap one day, if azrun tak dengan die for sure dengan perempuan lain. hello perempuan, if nak cakap sumtin, better pikir dulu kot?? sumpah aku sedih bile aku lalui keadaan ni.. berat sungguh dugaan yang aku alami..

cerita ni bermula pada 1.1.2011. azrun dengan membe die nak pegi cosmo world, so dorang mintak aku jage handphone, wallet dorang. aku tak tau knape aku tak nak ikut. time tu aku memang macam takde mood. lepas dorang dah masuk cosmo world, aku lepak dekat tepi entrance cosmo world sebab aku nak tengok dorang camne kat dalam tu. hepi sangat dorang sampai babai aku nak tunjuk dorang hebatlah boleh masuk dalam tu. hehe.. tak lame lepas tu, aku decide nak duduk dekat tingkat atas times square atau name singkatannye TS. aku tak tau macam mane aku tergerak hati nak tengok handphone si pijoe iaitu membe azrun. aku nak tengok gambar dalam handphone die. aku belek-belek gambar dekat handphone die. tibe-tibe ade 1 gambar yang buat air mate aku tibe-tibe keluar. gambar azrun dengan seorang perempuan. tangan azrun dekat atas bahu perempuan tu. omg!! betul ke ape yang aku nampak?? time tu tangan aku menggeletar.. aku hilang arah macam orang dah hilang segala-galanya.. aku terus call zulfuadi, kawan azrun sebab aku nak tau hal sebenar. aku menangis tak ingat dunia sampai zul risau pasal aku.

setelah beberapa jam aku tunggu, azrun datang dekat aku. aku tak cakap sepatah pun dengan die. aku menangis non stop sebab sedih sangat dengan ape yang aku nampak. die terkejut knape aku tibe-tibe jadi camtu. aku tanya die pasal perempuan dalam gambar tu. die explain perkara sebenar kat aku yang gambar tu gambar lame. tapi aku masih tak puas ati sebab aku tak tau smua cerita sebenar. aku hanya mampu percaya dengan explanation die. semua kawan die aku tanye pasal hal ni. aku bukan tak nak percaya. tapi susah untuk terima benda ni smua. ape yang buat aku lebih geram, perempuan tu dok mesej azrun & siap sound aku dekat facebook. sampai hati perempuan tu buat dekat kaum sejenis die camni.

aku cube untuk lupekan semua masalah ni, tapi hubungan aku dengan azrun makin hari makin retak. kiteorang dah tak macam dulu. semuanya dah lain. die pun susah nak call aku. aku tau aku selalu marah die, aku selalu moody. tapi aku nak die tau, aku nak semuanya macam dulu. kiteorang penah clash lepas spm & cpel balik taun lepas. die dah bersusah-payah nak dapatkan aku balik. macam-macam cara dia dah buat untuk tawan hati aku balik. selama 2 tahun die berusaha. aku rase rugi kalau kiteorang berpisah. aku sayangkan die, aku tak nak berpisah lagi. cukuplah sekali, aku tak nak berpisah buat kali ke-2 =(

2011-03-11T11:24:00.002+08:00

hati ni makin sakit...

hati ni makin terluka..

hati ni makin pedih..

hati ni dah hancur..

aku akan pergi jauh dari hidup kau.... =(

khas untuk awak :

2011-03-09T11:34:00.003+08:00

saya nak awak tau yang saya sayang sangat kat awak ,

saya sedih bile awak marah saya ,

saya nak awak jadi romantik & lebih memahami saya ,

saya sanggup berkorban ape saje untuk awak asalkan awak bahagia ,

saya jeles bile awak tengok perempuan lain bile saya bsame awak ,

saya tak suke bile tibe2 awak diamkan diri ,

saya marah bile awak abaikan saya & buat tak tau dengan saya ,
saya nak awak yang dulu..... =(

P/S : Bukan kesempurnaan yang saya cari.. Saya nak bahagia bersama awak smpai bile2.. Awak ajar saya untuk mencintai awak, tapi awak tak ajar untuk saya membenci awak AZRUN AZHIM...

i miss my FAMILY badly =(

2011-02-25T23:23:00.000+08:00

bosannye skrang ni.. mcm xde life je.. asyik bz dgn assignment, kuiz & test.. xsempat nk balik kelantan.. aiyoo.. knapelah rumah jauh sgt skrg ni.. dulu time dok kl sng je nk balik.. huhu.. i really miss my family damn much =( da lme xjmp dorg kott.. huhu..

decision has made =)

2011-02-21T12:06:00.001+08:00

I'LL BE WITH YOU NO MATTER WHAT ;

I'LL FORGET YOU'RE MISTAKE ;

PAST IS PAST ;

LET'S START WITH A NEW CHAPTER MY LOVE =)

CINTA

2011-02-19T14:41:00.001+08:00

ade ape dgn cinta? aku cukup xfaham knape org xreti nk hargai cinta? bile ade org dkt dpn mate, tp lnsung xtau nk hargai.. dah sminggu aku dgn die xbaik.. ktorg da xmcm dlu.. asyik bgaduh aje.. sjak muncul ppuan tu, smua jd brubah.. hati aku sakit.. susah utk aku gambarkan kesakitan ni.. td aku msg die, aku ckp aku dah xnk tgk muke die lg, aku dah xnk jumpe die.. tp dlm hati ni, tuhan je yg tau btape rindunye aku kt die.. aku rase, better aku LUPEKAN DIE =( aku dah xsanggup nk hadapi smua ni.. aku xcukup kuat nk harungi smua dugaan ni..

YA ALLAH, TEGUHKANLAH HATI HAMBAMU INI.. =(

SAKIT HATI TAHAP DEWA =____=

2011-02-10T20:02:00.001+08:00

aku btol2 sakit ati, geram, bengang dgn pe yg jd.. mmg xdpt trime ah ble de org kcau org yg pling kte syg.. nk dijadikan cite, aku add fb sorg minah ni cz aku de tgk pic bf aku dgn die ni. aku dpt fb die dr mmbe bf aku. aku dgn gentle n tebalkan muke tanye die psl hbungan die dgn bf aku.. aku ckp elok2 dgn die, tp die start nk ckp kasar dgn aku.. mcm2 bnda die kutuk2 aku.. die soh aku break dgn bf aku, ckp aku ni ppuan pelik.. aku bole plak mntak maaf kt die cz dok tnye psl die n bf aku.. tp ksabaran manusia ade batasnye.. hello ppuan yg bajet diri ko hot tu, xpayah kot nk menggedik kacau hak org.. klau ko rampas hak org lain, for sure hak ko akan dirampas jugak.. da byk kli aku gado dgn bf aku psl ko.. aku siap mra2 bf aku smua psl ko.. aku bole halau bf aku pegi kt ko cz aku nk bg chance kt ko jage bf aku.. tp, sorry to say lah kn, ko bkn ppuan yg sesuai.. dala biadap, xde budi bahasa langsung.. mnyakitkan hati lah weh!!! pasni aku xnk amik tau psl ko lg.. lantak ko ah nk kcau bf aku ke ape.. mcm ko ckp, aku kn LOOSER.. ko yg WINNER.. ape yg aku boleh ckp, truskanlah usahe ko utk mnghancurkan hbungan org lain.. WHAT YOU GIVE, YOU'll GET BACK DEAR =)

INSOMNIA

2010-12-22T15:25:00.003+08:00

penyakit ni bole bawak maut..

penyakit ni bole buat kite jadi blurr..

penyakit ni bole buat kite hilang pertimbangan..

penyakit ni bole buat kite mengantuk, mengantuk dan terus lentok..

penyakit ni bole buat kite bngun lmbat keesokan harinye...

penyakit ni bole buat mate jadi lebam..

penyakit ni bole buat kite jadi gemuk sebab asyik nak makan je coz xbole tido..

penyakit ni bole buat kite pening kepale tahap dewa..

penyakit ni sangat bahaye..

P/S : aku da menghidap penyakit ni sepanjang cuti sem.. org lain tido lena, aku je yg jd guard malam2.. so, aku nk ubat yg paling mujarab.. klau bole pling kuat kat alam semesta ni coz aku da xbole tahan lagi.. aku xbole tido.. help me!!!!!!!!!!! :(

my prince charming :)

2010-12-21T16:16:00.006+08:00

AZRUN AZHIM,

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH... i want you to know that i can't live without you.. thanks for being my strength & soul.. you're always with me through thick & thin.. even i've done so many mistakes, you still accept me.. as we grow older together, as we continue to change with age, there is one thing that will never change... i will always keep falling in love with you. i really hope, this relationship will last forever my dear.. i promise you.. :)

setelah sekian lame menyepi..

2010-12-20T15:30:00.000+08:00

lme btul aku xupdate blog.. hurm.. let's get it started :) arini cm ari2 lain.. bosan gle kot time cuti sem ni.. xtau nk wtpe.. asyk mkn tdo, mkn tdo.. mngemukkan bdan je.. huh.. ble ah nk kurus cmni kn.. mcm2 prubahan dlm life aku.. aku smakin epi dgn si dia.. :) even ktorg sllu gado, but alhmdulillah smuanye ok.. bout study plak, alhmdulillah aku lulus smua sbject utk sem ni.. aku ni pelik skitt.. org nga stdy, aku bole plak tdo.. hope, sem dpn aku akn stdy btul2.. aku nk success.. even byk dugaan yg aku kene tempuhi, tp i'ALLAH aku akn usahe dgn lbih gigih.. aku xnk hampakan fmly aku.. siblings aku smua success.. aku nk jd mcm dorg.. abg aku yg 2nd da dpt keje as consultant kt MICHAEL PAGE.. aku nk jd cm die.. :) xlame lg, sem bru akn bmule.. aku kene prepare mental n physical aku.. cheewah.. cm nk g bperang plak kn.. :D aku nk mulekan hdup bru.. byk pngalaman yg aku da alami slame aku mnyepi ni.. aku xnk toleh ke blakang lg.. aku nk lpekan kisah lme aku.. aku yakin die bhagia dgn gf bru die.. n aku pon bhagia dgn bf aku skrg ni.. :)

long time no see -__-

2010-05-18T00:40:00.000+08:00

da lme gler xupdate blog.. kemalasan yg mlanda.. huhu.. dlm a few months neyh, mcm2 da jd.. yg happy, yg sad.. smua ade.. btw, happy 2nd year anniversary azrun azhim.. :) even kte pena clash dlu, but we still together now.. :)

2010-01-27T13:45:00.000+08:00

he's my new moon :)

i can't live without him

i'll never leave him anymore

i'll start my new life with him

promise me that u won't leave me

i love u soooo much

even we've been through all the pain,

i want u to know that, i juz want u..

AZRUN AZHIM <3

BUDAK KELANTAN

2009-12-25T15:06:00.004+08:00

malasnyer nk update blog.. :( bosan sgt arinie.. xtao nk wtpe.. baek tgk movie jea :) lg best.. smalam tdo lmbt sgt cz tgk cte budak kelantan :) best jea cte tuh.. msg yg nk dsampaikan sgt bmakne utk insan yg bergelar wanita. jgn mudah menyerahkan maruah pd lelaki yg xdkenali. pe yg bestnyer bout cte neyh, dr awal smpai abez, plakon sume speaking klantan jea.. yela.. title cte neyh pon ~~'BUDAK KELANTAN'~~ :D mcm² word dlm cite tuh xfhm sgtla smpai naek pning jea dgr.. such as:

kocoh : gaduh

saing : kawan

koho-koho : sikit-sikit

gelenya : gatal/miang

binate : binatang

koghok : tengkorak

gewe : kekasih

sa mas : 50 sen

adoi.. pning jea.. tp kene blaja gak kechek klate cz skunk da stay kt klate.. :) by hook or by crook, kene gak blaja kechek.. bak kate pepatah, msuk kandang kambeng, mengembek.. msuk kndang harimau, mngaum :)

2009-12-23T16:14:00.002+08:00

saya ~~r i n d u~~ awak

saya ~~p e r l u k a n~~ awak

saya ~~c i n t a k a n~~ awak

saya nak awak ~~f a h a m~~ saya

ada apa dengan ~~c i n t a~~ ?????

ada apa dengan ~~s a y a n g~~ ????

saya bosan, penat, letih.. awak xfhm pe yg saya rasa :(

awak xtahu apa yg saya lalui slame ni :(

MUST READ (MEN vs WOMEN) :)

2009-12-22T22:46:00.001+08:00

Handwriting:

Men: To their credit, men do not decorate their penmanship. They just chicken-scratch.

Women: Women use scented, colored stationery and they dot the "i" with circles or hearts. Women use ridiculously large loops in the "b" and "g". It is a pain to read a note from a woman. Even when she's dumping you, she will put a smiley face at the end of the note.

Groceries:

Women: A woman makes a list of things she needs, then goes out to the store and buys those things.

Men: A man waits till the only items left in his fridge are half a lime and a beer. Then he goes grocery shopping. He buys everything that looks good. By the time a man reaches the checkout counter, his cart is packed tighter than the Clampett's car on Beverly Hillbillies. Of course, this will not stop him from going to the express lane.

Relationships:

Women: When a relationship ends, a woman will cry and pour her heart out to her girlfriends, and she will write a poem titled "All Men Are Idiots". Then she will get on with her life.

Men: A man has a little more trouble letting go. Six months after the break-up, at 3:00 a.m. on a Saturday night, he will call and say, "I just wanted to let you know you ruined my life, and I'll never forgive you, and I hate you, and you're a total floozy. But I want you to know that there's always a chance for us." This is known as the "I Hate You / I Love You" drunken phone call, that 99% of all men have made at least once. There are community colleges that offer courses to help men get over this need.

Maturity:

Women: They mature much faster than men. Most 17-year old females can function as adults.

Men: Most 17-year old males are still trading baseball cards and giving each other wedgies after gym class. This is why high school romances rarely work out.

Bathrooms:

Men: A man has six items in his bathroom -- a toothbrush, shaving cream, razor, a bar of Dial soap, and a towel from the Holiday Inn.

Women: The average number of items in the typical woman's bathroom is 437. A man cannot identify most of these items.

SHOES:

Women: When preparing for work, a woman will put on a wool suit, then slip on Reebok sneakers. She will carry her dress shoes in a plastic bag from Saks. When a woman gets to work, she will put on her dress shoes. Five minutes later, she will kick them off because her feet are under the desk.

Men: A man will wear the same pair of shoes all day. Let's not talk about how many days he'll wear the same socks.

Children:

Women: A woman knows all about her children. She knows about dentist appointments and soccer games and romances and best friends and favorite foods and secret fears and hopes and dreams.

Men: A man is vaguely aware of some short people living in the house.

Dressing Up:

Women: A woman will dress up to: go shopping, water the plants, empty the garbage, answer the phone, read a book, get the mail.

Men: A man will dress up for: weddings, funerals.

Laundry:

Women: Women do laundry every couple of days.

Men: A man will wear every article of clothing he owns, including his surgical pants (the ones that were hip about eight years ago) before he will do his laundry. When he is finally out of clothes, he will wear a dirty sweatshirt inside out, rent a U-Haul and take his mountain of clothes to the Laundromat. Men always expect to meet beautiful women at the Laundromat. This is a myth perpetuated by reruns of old episodes of "Love American Style."

Eating Out:

Men: When the check comes, each man will each throw in $20 bills, even though it's only for $22.50. None of them will have anything smaller, and none will actually admit they want change back.

Women: When the girls get their check, out come the pocket calculators.

Mirrors:

Men: Men are vain and will check themselves out in a mirror.

Women: They are ridiculous; they will check out their reflections in any shiny surface: mirrors, spoons, store windows, bald guys' heads.

Menopause:

Women: When a woman reaches menopause, she goes through a variety of complicated emotional, psychological, and biological changes. The nature and degree of these changes varies with the individual.

Men: Menopause in a man provokes a uniform reaction - he buys aviator glasses, a snazzy French cap and leather driving gloves, and goes shopping for a Porsche.

The Phone:

Men: Men see the telephone as a communication tool. They use the telephone to send short messages to other people.

Women: A woman can visit her girlfriend for two weeks, and upon returning home, she will call the same friend and they will talk for three hours.

Cameras:

Men: Men take photography very seriously. They'll shell out $4000 for state of the art equipment, and build dark rooms and take photography classes.

Women: Women purchase Kodak Instamatics. Of course, women always end up taking better pictures.

Movies:

Women: Every actress in the history of movies has had to do a nude scene. This is because every movie in the history of movies has been produced by a man.

Men: The only actor who has ever appeared nude in the movies is Richard Gere. This is another reason why men hate him.

Conversation:

Men: Men need a good disagreement to get talking. For instance, "Wow, great movie." or "What are you, nuts? No REAL cop would have an Uzi that size."

Women: Women, not having this problem, try to initiate conversations with men by saying something agreeable: "That garden by the roadside looks lovely." "Mm hmm." Pause. "That was a good restaurant last night, wasn't it?" "Yeah." Pause. And so on.

song shows a forever promising love from one person :(

2009-12-22T12:40:00.006+08:00

NOBODY

You Know I still Love You Baby.
And it will never change.

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Why are you trying to, to make me leave ya
I know what you're thinking
Baby why aren't you listening
How can I just
Just love someone else and
Forget you completely
When I know you still love me

Telling me you're not good enough
My life with you is just too tough
You know it's not right so
Just stop and come back boy
How can this be
When we were meant to be

Nothing's Gonna Change My Love For You

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now, touch me now
I don't want to live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead a way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too
Hold me now, touch me now
I don't want to live without you

TAKE NOTE PEEPS -_-

2009-12-04T11:54:00.007+08:00

my brother
centre of attraction ; his body ;D
crush since ; NEVER.. HAHAHA
motive ; juz wanna make him famous ;D

kim hyun joong

centre of attraction ; his style
crush since ; 1973 ;D

kim bum
centre of attraction ; his smile
crush since ; watch his movie

2009-12-03T12:57:00.004+08:00

NEW PLACE, STORY & LIFE

my dad bwu blek dr klantan last nite.. ary sbtu neyh da kene pndah.. pergh!! gler ke pe..?? nk kene packing brg lg.. adoiii!! byk keje kene wt.. igt dkt ke hape..?? sume shocked when i told them, dat i'll moving 2 klantan..

zul said: i'm missing u taw x... rase nak tekeluar jantung ni tao x??
myra said: eh.. best ke dok sne??
amanda said: bhaye klaw ko nk naek bus dr klantan ke bangi cz ko xbiase

oh gosh!! jgnla wt aq cuak.. :D hope, epi kt sne :)

2009-12-02T12:47:00.007+08:00

peneman di kala sunyi.. i really love diz teddy bear.. kre teddy neyh cm new bf 4 me lah.. ahah.. i'll bring diz teddy anywhere.. aish.. femes lak teddy neyh.. hehe.. act nk cte bout my new life.. a bit complicated.. nk plih kiri, knan trase, nk plih knan, kiri tluke.. abez, nk plih yg mne?? don't force me 2 love u lah if i don't, won't.. cnta xley dpkse tao x?? jgn gunekan duet utk bli cnta, jgn mmakse if owg laen xnk.. mmg bnyi cm weird jea wif my prob neyh.. i wanna know da best solution 4 diz prob.. day by day, jd mkin parah.. nk msg lg sowg, lg sowg plak xbg.. i must do diz.. de a few reasons.. next week da kene pndah klantan, lg ah bz.. around 27/12 da kene blek bangi.. from klantan 2 bangi wif love.. ahah.. wif love ah sgt.. dala jaoh.. adoii..

tyme sem 1 bole ah nk blek umh sllu cz dkt jea.. sem 2 jgn arap ah bole blek sllu.. tyme dlu, borang mara, dictionary ttnggal.. bole ah nk blek.. 40 min da smpai.. klaw dr klantan, 40 min mmg bole smpai.. tp dlm mmpi je ah.. hehe.. :D skunk neyh spend tyme ngn adek jela.. dye nk abezkan sisa² yg tnggal nk mnikmati keindahan kota metropolitan yg pnuh sesak dgn knderaan n mnusia.. pape pon, hope life my fmly kt klantan gonna be more fun.. 4 ala, adek da xbole g klcc, ts, mid lg cm dlu.. hehe.. :D

2009-12-02T01:15:00.005+08:00

new me
new breath
new sky
new moon
new twilight
new strength
new year
:)

2009-12-01T00:04:00.005+08:00

don't worry.. i'm okay wif him.. :) tengs ya all my fwens 4 supporting me.. i'll transfer 2 klantan next week. my dad has been promoted there.. i'm happy now.. yes i do.. my sis got 5A's in upsr n my dad has been promoted. thank god.. even i've faced a lot of probs.. but i can solve all those messy probs.. SNSD in my heart.. 4 eva :)))

2009-11-25T14:48:00.003+08:00

ALREADY GONE

we've nothing.. i've no relationship with him :(

HAPPY :)

2009-11-18T19:53:00.008+08:00

It is not easy to find happiness in ourselves, and it is not possible to find it elsewhere. They say a person needs just three things to be truly happy in this world: someone to love, something to do, and something to hope for.You must love yourself before you love another. By accepting yourself and fully being what you are, your simple presence can make others happy.This life is yours. Take the power to choose what you want to do and do it well. Take the power to love what you want in life and love it honestly. Take the power to walk in the forest and be a part of nature. Take the power to control your own life. No one else can do it for you. Take the power to make your life happy.To be happy with a man you must understand him a lot and love him a little. To be happy with a woman you must love her a lot and not try to understand her at all.

2009-11-16T23:30:00.004+08:00

OMG!! mish diz moment soo much. npe kte da jauh? npe kte da xcm dlu? npe sume da brubah? npe kte susa nk dok sme² lg? npe kte da xg klaz sme²? npe kte da xbgosip sme²? npe weyh? sumpah.. aq rndu gler ngn kowg.. aq rndu gler tyme neyh.. aq syg gler ngn kowg.. aq rndu naneng.. :( amanda ttp de ngn aq.. tp, naneng da jaoh.. :( naneng da xlepak ngn ktowg.. huhu.. so sad.. tp xpe, i'll make sure sem 2 akn wt kte jd rpat blek.. :) 4 zul, i've got no idea.. idk wut 2 say at diz moment.. be urself, sorry 4 everything, we fight, we make up.. :)

confused with my life now :(

2009-10-31T18:11:00.007+08:00

i juz love u zul :(

okay.. let's start.. 4 months tuh lme sgt ke eyh..?? 4 months tuh bosan ke..?? 4 months tuh pnat ke..?? i can't undrstand wut had hppen in our rlationship zul.. swear 2 god.. kte da cm jaoh gler.. mayB u bored wif me, mayB u still can't 4get ur past..?? i know, it sounds horrible if i talk bout diz.. but i must 2.. i xpena gtao u bout diz.. i juz shut up cz i nk jge aty u.. smlm mmg i mra gler ngn u zul.. sorry ah.. i can't cntrol myself... n juz now, u gtao i yg ex i msg i, u ckp i xdelete ms ex i..?? tah ah zul.. idk wut the hell r u talking bout.. i syg gler kt u tao x..?? don't messed up wif all these shit things!! plz ahh.. if u syg i, plz trust me.. I LOVE U SO MUCH tao x..?? i da xde boy laen da.. in my heart, de nme u jea.. plz trust me.. :(

hey peeps -__-

2009-10-30T22:39:00.003+08:00

long time no see babe.. sorry cz da lme gler xupdate blog.. lately,kinda bz wif classes, assgnments.. to my old fwens, sorry guys.. bkn sombong oke. juz bz jea.. spanjang a few months neyh, mcm² jd.. sgt pnat oke haih.. btw, i'm in dilemma oke.. still search a correct answer 4 incorrect quest.. wut's dat..?? HAHAHA :DD it's bout my secret.. juz my fwens n boyfiee know bout diz ;p i miss them sooo muchla.. :( asyk blek umh jea skunk neyh.. nga final exam pon, still blek umah.. haih.. xtao nk ckp pe da.. da lme xblogging.. OMG!! tetibe rndu kt old skewl, ZENITH CORP, ALP.. da lme xjmp kowunk oke.. but, it's okela.. pape pon, i'm hppy now wif my boyfiee, who is ZUL FIRDAUS :) he helped me a lot in my studies n life..

new life with new story :)

2009-07-30T14:06:00.012+08:00

da lme gler xupdate blog weyh.. sumpah rndu ngn sume especially my fmily, dalila, amy.. sorry kowunk.. kinda bz wif my studies.. :((( btw, spanjang a month neyh.. mmg best sgt oke!! i've got new frenz n even new besties :)) they light up my life especially amanda, naneng, ieka, intan, ann.. tengs buddies.. n i've got new boyfiee.. yeay!! i love YOU soo much ah ZUL :)) pape pon, kowunk mmg bestla!!! there r a few pics yg smpat ktowunk snap 2gether.. tyme orientation week, bzday amanda.. tgk ajela yerk.. hehe..

orientation week :)

2009-07-02T11:15:00.005+08:00

pnat bhai.. tuh je ah yg ley dungkapkn.. kene bngon awl, de mcm² aktiviti.. yg pling best, tyme LDK :) at dat time, i dpt knal ngn someone yg light up my life now.. hehe.. sorry ah. i can't upload pics now cz kinda bz wif preparation nk strt class.. i'm taking BUSINESS STUDIES (KPTM-UITM). i can't believe diz cz da kene stdy blek.. haih.. xdpt ah bngon lmbt lg en.. hehe.. tyme reg dlu, haih.. cuak gak ah cz xde mmbe.. tp, ble da lepak skli ngn housemates, riuh rndah jdnyer.. hehe.. my housemates are ieka(jb), amanda(pahang), ina(penang), ann(rawang), intan(putrajaya).. they rock my world lah.. :) aftr finished orientation, ktowunk da g mid, metro kajang. ktowunk sgt gler shopping oke!! abez rabak ah my money aftr diz.. keje shopping jea.. HAHAHA

whoaa.. i can't sleep.. :((

2009-06-24T03:02:00.004+08:00

lg bpe jam jea da msok hostel. xnk!! nk stay at home jea.. nk sembang ngn adek smpai pg. nk hug mama lme², nk cubit abah.. haih!! gonna miss them soo much.. :(( i must sleep now.. MUST!! but, pale otak nga serabot neyh.. dala kene bngon awl neyh.. tetibe, rndu kt dye.. ble dye nk blek kl?? nk jmp dye.. even we've nothing.. clash xbrerti bmusuh. let bygones, be bygones. it's almost 4 a.m. pape pon, tgk korean movie dlu, bwu bole tdo.. hehe.. ;D bubye.. gonna miss u'll...

walking away...

2009-06-23T13:42:00.004+08:00

bye bye everyone.. i'm walking away.. ;D kene start new life kt cllege nnty.. forget the past, forget him, forget sadness, forget everything.. but, i'll never forget the sweetnest in my life. for DALILA, take care of urself oke?? jgn lpekn akk even akk da xde pape ngn abe oke?? akk syg sgt² kt adek.. even jarak mmisahkn kte, akk still akn igt adek.. ilysm adek!! akk akn strong lam pe jua keadaan. even susa, even snang, akk akn hadapi ngn tabah.. till we meet again.. :)

2009-06-21T13:46:00.005+08:00

sgt mlaz nk update blog. can anyone help me?? update my blog plz..?? HAHAHA.. lately, kinda bz with korean drama. idk wut hppen to my life. it was like 24 hrs with korean drama. 2 days ago, my mom scolded me bcoz i like to watch korean drama. smpai dye nk tgk cte yg dye ske pon xbole.. i juz watched KBS channel. sume cte korea yg best² tao. my mom pon, bole plak join skli td. she said

*la.. best jugak cte korea neyh kn. igtkn xbest. cmni, tiap² ary mama tgk tao*

i replied

*tuhla mama.. adek da ckp.. best tao cte korea neyh. mama jea yg xcaye. tgk skunk, spe yg rugi? mama da tlepas cte yg sblom² neyh..* ;DD

from today onwards, we're korean drama supporter.. HAHAHA.. but, diz wednesday, i'll strt my studies lol. OMG!! mlaz gler ah nk dok hostel. nnty homesick cmne?? ;DD xnk jd cm tyme form 1. juz a few persons knew wut hppen at dat tyme.. pfttt!! i dun like hostel.. nk dok umah.. i wanna sleep, sleep n sleep all da day.. bole x..?? hehe.. ;DD mlaz btol ah aida neyh.. but it's okay.. hope, i'll find a new friend there. :) n mayB a new bf..?? HAHAHA

i'm falling in love with THEM :)

2009-06-18T18:22:00.012+08:00

grrr.. idk y, when i'm looking to their eyes, my heartbeat bcome more faster, faster n fasterlah.. can i be all of ur gf?? HAHAHA.. btw, i choose GOO JUN PYO oke :) yg pkai bju itam tuh. if i've bf like u, my life will brighter oke.. *da lah ensem, style plak tuh* ;D it doesn't mean i'm crazee oke.. it's bcoz i'm soo in love with him. his style is one in a million oke. aftr diz, i'll make sure dat my fture husband looks 100% like him. if not, i dun want to marry oke. HAHAHA.. i've watched their drama's trice a day oke.. i can't sleep without watching diz F4. oh GODD.. plz meet me with someone like GOO JUN PYO.. he's kind-hearted, charming n loyal to his gf. i hope, 1 day i'll meet my own GOO JUN PYO n meet diz F4 :))

BOYS OVER FLOWER

2009-06-17T23:51:00.010+08:00

lately, i love to watch this korean drama series. it's about jan di, who is an average girl whose family owns a dry-cleaning shop that is located near the luxurious and well-known Shin Hwa College. JAN DI meets the four most richest and spoiled boys when she delivers laundry to the school one day. the boys are known as the F4 and cause trouble to those who speak out against them. this story, gonna make u think for a while, y u should appreciate ur lover. i love GOO JUN PYO, the most attractive character in diz story. he makes me sooo in love with him bcoz when he smiles, i'm melting okay. HAHAHA.. in conclusion, everyone of u, must watch diz drama.. i give 5 stars to diz drama :))

nowadays.. =__=

2009-06-16T16:02:00.021+08:00

da 3-4 ary dmam neyh. ble nk elok?? haih.. tp, it's my fault gak. da tao dmam, g mnum ais plak tuh. aiyoo.. ble nk elok en?? but, de aku kesah?? dlu, bole ah bf nk take care ke pe en. now, jge ah diri snirik. xde spe pon nk amek tao.. huhu.. bosan ah skunk neyh.

can anyone be my valentine? klao bole, Kim Rae Won plz?
love his smile okay. i'm crazy of u lah syg.. HAHAHA ;D
tingat lak kate² dasyat dr ieka.. ;DD

*ko neyh, pas da single, asal jd cmnie weyh?? xjmp psychiatrist ke?
ko da kronik neyh. rsaw lak aq ngn gf aq neyh ;D*

*weyh.. smpai aty ko. aq lom gler lg ahhh!! HAHAHA*

but, she makes me think for a while. why she said like dat?
am i crazy enough to see psychiatrist?? -__-
wuteverla.. i'm happy now, even a bit lonely.. gaahhh!!
it's okay.. i still got my family, besties n even my other side.

move on to other story dat had hppened today.. i went to KLINIK KELUARGA, wangsa maju with my dad n adek. oh GOSH!! rmai gak ah owg skt. deep inside my heart,

*spe yg skit neyh? asal ank skit, 1 fmily ikot??* HAHAHA

but it's okay.. smangat ASSABIYAH tuh pnting oke. :) while waiting for the doctor, texting ah jup ngn a few prsons. bosan gler kott tyme tuh. nk jea g klcc.. nk tgk movie.. -__- but, dmam.. so, kene redha jela en. aftr da check sume, ktowunk blek ah cz adek dmam pnas. thank god ah xde pape.. rsaw gak.. skunk neyh en virus H1N1 mlanda.. rsaw jea.

i tink, sume neyh punca a.lee.. dye ah pnyebab kpd virus neyh sume. spe soh g BALI?? then, batuk² sume. ktowunk yg jd mngse.. HAHAHA.. *jgn mra tao* kamu kan awokk ;DD nnty, kuar tgk movie sesame tao? ;DD

idk y.. the more i write, the more i merepekkk.. pfttt!! neyh ah gara² dtnggalkn bf. sume jd xkene.. HAHAHA.. in conclusion, jge ah bf anda lek lok.. make sure, they love u, like u love them. ANDA MAMPU MENGUBAHNYA.. ;DD

2009-06-15T13:58:00.010+08:00

bosan gler kott!! xtao nk wtpe.. da ah nga flu neyh..
neyh ah akibat maen ujan smlm.. yela, tyme mghrib g psar mlm.
elok benar ah tuh. bkn nk g surau ke msjid ke en.. HAHAHA

tetibe lak cm rndu kt a few persons.. but who?? -_-
tingat lak kt dowunk tuh.. their voices, their laughs..
no need to mention their names. secreto de amor ;D

i've got flu!! pfttt!! ase nk tcabot jea idong neyh huh..
da ah kene ujan, then byk mnum ais.. elok ah tuh..
HAHAHA.. now, i love blogging!! ye ah.. da bosan en..

dlu, leyh ah texting sumone.. skunk, lg gempak!!
leyh texting everyone!! pe yg aku mrepek neyh??
HAHAHA!! btw, i'm not ready to cntnue stdy..
nk enjoy lg!! *pdahal da 7 months lepaking at home*

tingin sgt nk tgk cte DRAG ME TO THE HELL..
but when?? grrr. i wanna watch diz movie with u.
i really need YOU lah :(

Project NS...

2009-06-15T12:36:00.027+08:00

whoaa.. title cm best jea en?? ;D btw, 2 of my besties kene g plkn. oh GOSH!! gonna miss them a lot. =_=

SHARIN- oh rin!! u ah bff pling terhebat yg pena i ade.
u xbyk songeh, u sllu teman i. even i byk prob,
u lnsung xkesah. u always ngn i through thick n thin.
nnty kt srawak, jgn lpe smnanjung lak tao..??
jgn xblek plak. cian amir nnty.. haha.. ;DD
ILYSM rin!! :) don't forget me plz??

AMIRUL NAJMI- oh roi!! lme btol ah xtao news u.
mne u mnghilang?? u da sehat ke lom neyh?

pape pon, kt kem nnty, pndai² ah bwk diri keyh??
make sure, cri sberapa rmai mmbe..
yg ensem²,passing ah kt i doe..
haha.. ;D btw, u akn BOTAK oke!! jgn lpe send mms tao..
nk tgk gak TRANSFORMASI yg blaku.. haha. ;DD

tc tao both of u'll.. ;) nnty, da smpai sne, jgn lpe i tao??

don't forget our sweet moment together.. HAHAHA

2009-06-14T14:21:00.020+08:00

i'm gonna miss her so much. even i've got no bf, but i still got her in my life. she's my evrything. :) siblings power, more powerful than everything oke.. u btter watch out guys. don't play² ah.. ;DD

2009-06-13T21:42:00.004+08:00

today just okay. xmcm ari² sblom neyh. i'm single already.. woohoo!! best ah plak rsenyer.. xde ah nk jge aty sesape en..

cm biase, aftr woke up, mkn ah. dat's my routine..
gahaha.. aftr dat, tgk tv, eating n eating.. bosan ah!!

lg 1 week da msok cllege. hope, ley ah create new life there.
pape pon, life must go on.. I WILL SURVIVE :)

2009-06-12T18:07:00.012+08:00

It's always the same in every relationship,
there is always one person crying and wishing to get back together,
while the other doesn't even remember the things they've been through.
I hate that I have to be the one who remembers every little detail while you can't seem to remember me at all.

2009-05-11T16:44:00.015+08:00

mama.. i love u soo much.
tengs for being a great mom ever :)
even mama kdg2 mra adek, tp adek ttp syg mama..
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY even update lwat shari. ;p
today, cm biase.. after solat sbuh, aq g ah cntnue tdow blek..
da xde aktiviti. cm dlu kene g skola. skunk nk g skola lg kew..??
xperlu ke skola da. jgn mra yerk dak2 skola yg bce blog akk neyh.. ;p
arinie aq kene g medical check up b4 msok KPTM, bangi.
so, smpai kt klinik around kol 11 lbey.
nk 2ngu 1 hal cz rmai gler patient yg nmpk mmg skit..
mne xnyer, aq dok usha mk cik dok sblah aq tuh..
aq dpt asekn yg dye neyh skit mate..
keje dok jeling2 jea.. pe slahnyer if dye snyum..??
bkn kene byar pown mk cik.. aiyoo..
jgn ah sombong sgtt.. kte bkn nk ngorat mk cik.. haha..
xpe2.. bia ah mk cik tuh ngn pnyakit kronik dye tuh.. ;p
naseb baek rmai baby comey kt klinik tuh..
adoii ase nk jea kidnapped dowunk.. ye ar..
spe soh comey sgt kn..?? ;p
aftr da urine test, x-ray sume, aq n abah gerak ah nk g tabung haji.
bwu jea 2run lif klinik, aq nmpk 2 owg mamat yg sgt familiar..
sowunk abg tuh dok usha aq lme gler.. aq pown ase xslesa sgt ah..
ble aq recall blek, bwu aq pasan yg both of eligible bachelors tuh mmbe abg aq..
haha.. ptot ah usha pnaz jea..
aftr dat, aq n abah g ah tabung haji cz nk bkak akaun bank islam..
tgh dok kusyuk isi borang tuh..
de lak sowunk mamat neyh pngl2 aq dr tepi..
aq wt dunno jea cz igtkn dye memaen..
tp naluri aq kuat mngatekn aq knal ngn mamat tuh..
aq pown pndang ah kt mamat tuh..
laaa.. guess who dat MAMAT tuh..?? ;p
izzad yusnizar mmbe lme aq since kcik lg..
adoii.. unbelievable bukan..? believe it.. haha..
then ktowunk pown pe lg.. borak sakan smpai ar sttle sume hal..
next, aq g lak ampang park ngn abah cz nk mkn2..
aq lak gtai dok ajk abah pi maen boling..
yela.. gian kott da lme xg maen boling.. hehe..
tp cian lak kt abah cz jup lg da nk msok ofis.
xpe ah, mkn jea pown xpe.. jnji bdue ngn abah..
arinie nk dating ngn abah jea.. hehe..
arinie mmg bestt gler ar cz aq dpt spend time lme gler ngn abah..
b4 diz mne de ktowunk kuar bdue cmnie..
sllunyer adek nyebok ikowt skli..
haha.. tp xpe.. we're family 4 eva n eva.. :)
pape pown, i love u sooo much abah even adek neyh teramat noty ;D

2009-05-09T19:44:00.018+08:00

KEBOSANAN, KEKUSUTAN, KERINDUAN

adoii.. npe ah xleyh tdow..?? mkin lme mkin trok pnyakit neyh.. bwu jea breng, pker lak mcm2.. tuhla.. neyhla.. sume xkene. asyk2 tringat man.. man oh man.. i'm crazee of u.. ahah..

arinie man da g kedah. aq lak cmne..?? still di takuk lame. dok umah, on9, mkn, tdow. tuh jela keje. bpak bosan seyh.. aq start study pown 24/6.. damn!! 7 bln aq mnjadi pnganggur trhormat without any monthly salary. oh gosh!! mmbe2 aq lak da collect prorperty cz dowunk keje.

cm biase, bngon jea tdow.. aq troz on9.. probnyer, aq tdow kol 6.30 pg n bngon kol 9. pe mknenyer aq tdow..?? adoii.. npe ngn aq skunk neyh..? jiwa kelajuanku smakin mmberontak utk aq troz brade lam keadaan yg kusut neyh. pe yg xkene..?? pe puncanyer..?? aq pown da xfhm.. mkin lme, mkin kalut, mkin serabot!!

notin special today.. juz stay at home.. tgk tv, msg ngn man, dgr lgu.. tp pe yg mnareknyer.. aq dpt tao sumtin yg aq xpena tao.. cinta tuh xmngenal ktinggian.. hehe.. aq tgk cte COWOK GUE PENDEK BENER.. starting cte neyh agk slow tp xpela.. lyan jela cz da blurr dok on9 lme2.. aq tgk jela smbil lipat kaen abg2 aq yg tramatlah byk shinggakan leyh ar aq bkak DOBI AIDA N *tut* fhm2 jela spe.. haha.. smbil lipat kaen tuh.. aq pown tgk jela cte neyh.. ending dye mmg syokk ar cz even pcintaan dowunk tuh byk sgt dugaan cz laki tuh pndek.. tp dowunk da prove yg cinta neyh xknal rupe, ktinggian n harta.. yela. klaw cnta juz tgk rupe, smpai ble cinta tuh leyh btahan kn..?? nnty ble da tua, xkn still cun n ensem..?? xtao ar plak klaw gne botox kn.. haha.. pape pown, arinie mmg bosan even tgk cte yg bestt cz my man da fly over to kedah.. gonna miss him badly ;(((

2009-05-06T20:40:00.016+08:00

MY CHARMING BROTHER

AHMAD FADZIL BADARUDIN
most eligible bachelor
u're outstanding person
my humpty dumpty
syg kmu ketat2 weyh
nnty kte mkn dunkin donut sesame lg tao ;p

2009-05-06T19:11:00.030+08:00

MY SILENT ASSASIN

SUHAILA BADARUDIN
all i need is u
please stop blaming me for everything
i'm sorry if i'm hurting u
let's create a new life together
lebiu ar adek oi<33